Wednesday, February 01, 2006
So Peaceful
I am so so happy these days. I don't really know why but these past few days I am so contented and happy with my life. I could not as for anything more except for these moments not to end. Mark and I argue all the time but I realize it's just simply because we care for each other. I am so deeply, madly, and truly in love with him. Today is actually our 17th monthsary meaning, we'vwe been together for almost 1 year and 5 months. I am so happy being his gurl. No one is comparable with him and all the effort that he has done just for our relationship to remain strong. I value him and our relationship so much that I could never ever live without him. Acoording to my philo prof it will never be possible that a person cannot live with the absence of someone special in his life but in my case, it is possible. I would always imagine my life with him and no one else.
It really feels so great when you have somebody to love and to share life with. Having Mark to be that person surely makes life so worthwhile.
It really feels so great when you have somebody to love and to share life with. Having Mark to be that person surely makes life so worthwhile.
Leah at 4:56 AM
Friday, September 09, 2005
What my life has.... RIGHT NOW!!
Bunch of friends... a wondeful fam... a close to perfect partner in life... a trustworthy bestfriend... a magnificent life... EVERTHING SEEMS SO RIGHT EXCEPT FOR ONE THING... I feel someone is lacking in my life right now... It's just as simple as this... Im so happy and THANKFUL with everything that's happening with me and my life but it's like I am not that contented... Im looking and searching for someone who can fill my emptiness inside... I have seen my highschool friends a while ago.. We're all happy of course to see one another... It's a wonderful experience for each one of us for sure... haaayyy... it's just that i hate to admit it... im so stupid to stil live my life in denial of one thing that I admit i certainly can't live without... DAMN SHIT!!! I really miss mark...
this week is surely one hell... We have only seen each other twice... SHIT!!! I hate this feeling... I promised myself to be more mature now... but I can't... I definitely can't survive a day not seeing his face... He's my defense mechanism... Aside from my fam he's my only reason why I would stil continue to breathe... It it were'nt for him I could have died ages ago... I know it's a bit exaggerated... It's just that I would want to release all these feelings inside of me.... I cant' live without him... i never thought anyone as simple as he is would affect my entire life... I don't have any regrets having him... I the luckiest girl in this world because he accepted and loved me for who i am... My only regret is that my life dependent so much on him... alam ko nhi2rapan na siya... It's just that i'm asking for sometime... i'll teach myself... I'll learn... to show him how much I really cares for him.... and only him...
this week is surely one hell... We have only seen each other twice... SHIT!!! I hate this feeling... I promised myself to be more mature now... but I can't... I definitely can't survive a day not seeing his face... He's my defense mechanism... Aside from my fam he's my only reason why I would stil continue to breathe... It it were'nt for him I could have died ages ago... I know it's a bit exaggerated... It's just that I would want to release all these feelings inside of me.... I cant' live without him... i never thought anyone as simple as he is would affect my entire life... I don't have any regrets having him... I the luckiest girl in this world because he accepted and loved me for who i am... My only regret is that my life dependent so much on him... alam ko nhi2rapan na siya... It's just that i'm asking for sometime... i'll teach myself... I'll learn... to show him how much I really cares for him.... and only him...
Leah at 7:48 AM
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
*Shit*
P*ta!!!! I never thought life would be this cruel to me... at first I thought everything was in place and I am doing fine... Suddenly, the strong twist came by... never in my life i have wondered to meet a F*ckSh*t like HER!!!! yes... DEFINITELY she's a gurl... P*ta tlga!!! bakit ganun??? khit kelan sa buhay ko wla pang nkskit sa kin tulad ng gnwa nia... Tangina!!! Isang buong linggo ko na itong dinadla... bkit sa dinami dami ng mssmang ugali na pde kong mkasalamuha ay ikaw pa?!! langya!!!Anung mrrmdaman nio kun ang tnuring niong B*s* F*en* ay gagaguhin lan kaio??? P*ta!! dahil sknya mnahal ko na ang mura!!! tndi nia... hndi ko akalain mangyyri ito... what i thought to be a wonderful friendship turned out to be a HUGE DISASTER... sa mga makakabasa nito pxnxia na kaio!!! ngaun lan tlga nhirapan ang kalooban ko!!!! sa mga nakkkila2 skin tlga alam nio un... hnggang ngaun umiiyak pa rin ako!!! lhat ng pgkababa gnawa ko na sa hrapan nia!!!! khit bastusin nia ako...AIOS LAN!!! P*ta!!!! Maramdaman nia lan na e2 ako hndang tumupad sa pangako ng isng B*s*F*en*...
Bkit ganun??? Andaming tanong sa utak ko??? Slamat sa Diyos at may bngay pa din ciang mga taong susuporta sa Gagong tulad ko... Just hope Karma will not meet her way!!! P*ta!!! hanggang ngaun umaasa pa rin akong aaios cia!!!! P*ta tlga!!!!
Leah at 7:44 AM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
My Favorite Word---Ambiguous!!!
I haven't recovered yet... e2 lan ang mssbi ko!!! hehehe... 3 wiks nko pmpsok sa st. paul ngaun... but it's still nice to reminisce the past... last july 1 10th monthsary na namin ni mark... I feel so lucky to have him.. Iba ang feeling na may taong nagmamahal sau... and to think na si Mark Arcilla pa un??? it is surely a priviledge on my part... (*naks*) memorable tlaga un july 1 for me... nkita ko almost lhat ng st. simon... it's rily nice to see and be with those guys... ansrap ng feeling na you are secured with so many people not minding what they will think about you... iba cla... wlan mka2plit... Kun pde lan we'll go in one school for college gnwa na sna nmin db?? pran mga kpatid na cla!!! iba pg anjan cla!!!=)
charisse is not feeling well today,.. something came up daw kc... i don't know what it is... pero she said I made her smile... I feel happy and honored about it... mnsan ko lan mgawa sa BESTFRIEND KO UN!!! I believe nman kc na she's strong enough... Like anyone else she had gone through a lot things in life... Matapang cia!!! She already proved me that...
Aldrin is happy I know... Im happy that he is trying to patch things up with Kaye these days... Im happy for them... Bilib din ako k Aldz... not all people can do what he does... He surely and deeply loves kaye... npa2smyl nlan ako kc he proved all people especially me that love really conquers all...=)
Gling nga pla ako rob manila knina wid the fam!!!... o db?? araw2 nlan... ciempre ng icemonster ako!!! can't resist it... Grabe... Kaaddict.... Naala2 ko c cindee... ang co-backstabber ko!!! hahahha!!! it's just a term mind you!! iba din itong ba2eng ito eh.... srap kasama... down n down nko but she's trying her best to cheer me up... so glad i'm her friend...=)
Sarap tlga mgphinga and to make gala wid the fam!!! i misss them even if I see them everyday... iba na kc un ksama mo un pamilya mo... cla ung mga taong d ka iiwan khit anung mangyri!!! npatunayan ko na un!!! kaia ikama2tay ko pg nwla pa cla skin... June 28 bday ni dad... i miss him so much na tlga... Iba na pg complete un family... nun day ng bday nia i am so disturbed... pra bng everything was not in place... anhrap ng nami2s mo un tao... mskit pa wla kang mggwa para mplapit sknya... i rily feel so bad...=(
im looking forward to be with the simon pipol agen... d k tlaga mgsasawa sknla!!!=)
Daddy,,i love you and i know I will be wid you soon....
If someone happens to visit my blog pls visit this site www.interviewwithgod.com
sarap lan ciang bisitahin if you want God to uplift your spirit and if you are disturbed you can surely count on Him!!! promise!!!
Ciao!!
charisse is not feeling well today,.. something came up daw kc... i don't know what it is... pero she said I made her smile... I feel happy and honored about it... mnsan ko lan mgawa sa BESTFRIEND KO UN!!! I believe nman kc na she's strong enough... Like anyone else she had gone through a lot things in life... Matapang cia!!! She already proved me that...
Aldrin is happy I know... Im happy that he is trying to patch things up with Kaye these days... Im happy for them... Bilib din ako k Aldz... not all people can do what he does... He surely and deeply loves kaye... npa2smyl nlan ako kc he proved all people especially me that love really conquers all...=)
Gling nga pla ako rob manila knina wid the fam!!!... o db?? araw2 nlan... ciempre ng icemonster ako!!! can't resist it... Grabe... Kaaddict.... Naala2 ko c cindee... ang co-backstabber ko!!! hahahha!!! it's just a term mind you!! iba din itong ba2eng ito eh.... srap kasama... down n down nko but she's trying her best to cheer me up... so glad i'm her friend...=)
Sarap tlga mgphinga and to make gala wid the fam!!! i misss them even if I see them everyday... iba na kc un ksama mo un pamilya mo... cla ung mga taong d ka iiwan khit anung mangyri!!! npatunayan ko na un!!! kaia ikama2tay ko pg nwla pa cla skin... June 28 bday ni dad... i miss him so much na tlga... Iba na pg complete un family... nun day ng bday nia i am so disturbed... pra bng everything was not in place... anhrap ng nami2s mo un tao... mskit pa wla kang mggwa para mplapit sknya... i rily feel so bad...=(
im looking forward to be with the simon pipol agen... d k tlaga mgsasawa sknla!!!=)
Daddy,,i love you and i know I will be wid you soon....
If someone happens to visit my blog pls visit this site www.interviewwithgod.com
sarap lan ciang bisitahin if you want God to uplift your spirit and if you are disturbed you can surely count on Him!!! promise!!!
Ciao!!
Leah at 3:02 AM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
after a Month!!!
wwWWaaaHHHhh!!! anlupet... pgkatpos ng isang buong buwan chka ko lan nbisita ito ulit... hahaha... mjo mhrap na kc sa skul... e2 2 wiks nkong pblik2 sa maynila... hrap pla mgcollege... tlgang sriling ckap coz u cant expect anyone to help you... although i met a bunch of trustworthy people na iba p dn ung mtagal mo ng kakila2 at ksama!!!(misu st. simon!!!) may bestfriend n nga ko eh... C EULA CHARISSE VALDEZ!! haha... joke!! pg nbasa nia to bka ptayin nia ko... kc LEJOS surname nia... gling ciang Manresa Pque... dun cia graduate... love ko to... tlgang I will do everything to tke care of her... sarap nia ksama at love nia c mark...(what more can i ask for..) kya lan, mnsan she reminds me of my tropa!!! TROPANG B!!!! syet... mis ko na kau!!! d ko man lan kyo mkita sa lupet ng sched ko!!! langya... nkkuwi ako 8 na ng gbi... anung klase un??? para ngan plgue akong hnahbol ng kabayo eh.. dhuil nkkpgunahan ako sa mga taong sumasakay sa bus... buti nlan plgue ko cnusundo ni mark... my protector ako!!! hahaha... =)sa skul ok nmn... lupet ng psych prof ko... sa sobrang tlino nia pran andmi niang gstong ituro na di mo lam kun nu uunahin mong intindihin.... sobrnag pretty pa... grbe... sarap nia ttgan!!! dmi nkong frnds,,.. love ko nga cla eh... actuali 10 kmeng mgkksama... (Cindee, Angel,Abby,Bel,Sheila,Modsna-->d ko lam kun tma spelling!!!, Princess--->josephian cia nun 1st yir!!! thank goodness khit p2no nkhnga ko may skulm8 ako!!!,Dwinkle,c Besty Charisse at ako!!!) Grabe... sakop na sakop nmen ang buong rob pg mgkksama kme... dbest tong mga taong to eh!!! mku2let... msrap kasama!!! ansaya ng buhay ko sa st. paul dhil sknla... unfortunately lhat cla ssli sa dance troupe!! langya anung pgasa ko dun??? mg gglee club 2loi ako mgisa...=(
haayy... dme ko pa gs2 ikwento... sna mhaba pa oras ko kaia lan nguumpisa plan dmi ng termpapers... minimum of 5 pages p daw huh??? at gymnastics un!!! langya anung isu2lat ko dun??? e1 ko ba... mnsan ansarap nlng palutangin mnsan ang utak ko sa alapaap pra d ko na mshadong mramdamn ang hirap!!! o db??? to the highest level na ito???=)
wel... sa lhat ng st. simon gudluck sanyo... sana ngeenjoy kaung lhat!!! kita kita tau!!! muahhh...
Leah at 7:50 AM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
A Chance...
After almost two weeks of not writing here... all i can say is that I MISS MY BLOG SO MUCH!!!! harhar... It's been quite awhile already... Many things happened to my colorful life that added more spice to it...;) I'm so happy and busy these days... That explains why I don't have the chance to update this blog... I really miss a lot of things... I miss my blog... my highschool barkada... my friends... my alma mater and most especially Mark... There are lot of things that I want to do but I know I can't... That makes my life a little frustrating... If only I'd be able to get any chance to do those things, I will certainly grab it and make the most out of it...A new school year is fast approaching... After three weeks I'm going to enter a whole new environment, meet a bunch of new people and experience a lot of new things... I'm so excited about it... This means that I have to be responsible enough to handle myself... Now, I will be independent... Not my mom, my sister or anybody can do this for me except myself... I'm a bit nervous but happy that I will have the chance to do all these things and be able to grow with different people...
Mark is doing great... He already attended his two-day orientation at La Salle Taft... I know he's so happy about it... I wish him all the luck and I believe that he can surpass anything...=) Last May 14, he got the chance to spend a time with my whole fam... We went to Sm Southmall to eat lunch and to buy some stuffs for school... Mark accompany us and even played arcade with my siblings... I'm so happy that day... My mom even caught him while he's wiping my forehead... I thought she will scold me but then I was surprised when she even teased me about it.. I can say that she likes Mark already... and that's a very good thing to know... Knowing that Mark get along so well with my fam is surely a big thing for me... (iloveyou swity..)
I guess I will end up here my mom is already telling me to stop this thing because we will go somewhere I don't know...=)
Leah at 10:45 PM
Monday, May 09, 2005
I'm BACK!!!
Whoa... It's good to be back!!! I've been out of this blog for two days and I can say that I absolutely missed it... I really enjoyed Mother's day last Sunday...=) I just hope my mom also did...=) We werwe so happy being together... the whole fam went out and did crazy things around the mall... haha!! (I belong to a unique and wonderful fam!!!) It's my mom's special day... I hope true bliss really reached her heart... How I wish my dad is with us though I certainly believed he never left us...=)
Yesterday was a very tiring day for me and my mom... I learned how to commute from our place to my school... It's a good experience and I'm happy... My mom's wacky side always shows up when we travel together... She's vigilant on what's happening around us... We laugh at everything because of the way she reacts on things... I'm so happy she's with me... We had lunch at Pizza Hut and pampered ourselves around the mall by just merely walking around...=) I will certainly miss this one...
I've got to see these movies for the past two days... Each one is absolutely GREAT!!! Cinderella Story is all about believing in yourself that is greatly needed by most people of my age...(that includes me!!!) Freaky Friday is about how parent and child should respect each other's point of views... Of course, we can't deny the fact that age gap is certainly the thing that causes misunderstanding but what should matter most is their love for one another... =) I really enjoyed The Enemy of the State... If you want to be thrilled I definitely recommend this one!!! With its technology inclined plot this is certainly something to see...=)
Mark and I am doing great these days... We're beginning to value each other even more... Less fights and more on mushy words... Though all we have AGAIN is phonecalls and text messages we are still getting stronger... The thing that matters the most for us is how important we are for one another... and having this thing in our hearts is more than enough... (I miss u honey... I love you...)
It's really hot these days... Ate Kai said that May is the hottest month this year and I'm starting to believe her... Yesterday when I went to Manila I perspire a lot even though I'm riding in an airconditioned bus... And to think that I have to walk to go to school with this heat, Oh my GOD!!! I'm speechless...
I want to share something more but my mom keeps on bugging me to accompany her... I have to go for now... =)
Yesterday was a very tiring day for me and my mom... I learned how to commute from our place to my school... It's a good experience and I'm happy... My mom's wacky side always shows up when we travel together... She's vigilant on what's happening around us... We laugh at everything because of the way she reacts on things... I'm so happy she's with me... We had lunch at Pizza Hut and pampered ourselves around the mall by just merely walking around...=) I will certainly miss this one...
I've got to see these movies for the past two days... Each one is absolutely GREAT!!! Cinderella Story is all about believing in yourself that is greatly needed by most people of my age...(that includes me!!!) Freaky Friday is about how parent and child should respect each other's point of views... Of course, we can't deny the fact that age gap is certainly the thing that causes misunderstanding but what should matter most is their love for one another... =) I really enjoyed The Enemy of the State... If you want to be thrilled I definitely recommend this one!!! With its technology inclined plot this is certainly something to see...=)
Mark and I am doing great these days... We're beginning to value each other even more... Less fights and more on mushy words... Though all we have AGAIN is phonecalls and text messages we are still getting stronger... The thing that matters the most for us is how important we are for one another... and having this thing in our hearts is more than enough... (I miss u honey... I love you...)
It's really hot these days... Ate Kai said that May is the hottest month this year and I'm starting to believe her... Yesterday when I went to Manila I perspire a lot even though I'm riding in an airconditioned bus... And to think that I have to walk to go to school with this heat, Oh my GOD!!! I'm speechless...
I want to share something more but my mom keeps on bugging me to accompany her... I have to go for now... =)
Leah at 8:42 PM